Getting Into It

My Mom has a saying "if you can't get out of it, get into it" and that is exactly what I have been doing lately.  It may not be the healthiest for me but I have been embracing my recent bout of lethargy.  I figure if fighting it isn't making it go away maybe coddling it will.  Brad and I had a nice relaxing weekend.  We started some projects - laundry, picking up the house, putting up the Christmas decorations (yes, they are still up) - but mostly we did nothing.  We watched TV, rented a movie, and just spent time with each other.  It was nice and lazy - and I liked it.

It was all fine and good when I was doing the 40 Days to rely on the schedule that Baron set for me -- I was committed to this activity and it had a set duration and time -- but now that the 40 Days is over I have to find a schedule that works for me.  I don't want to use the word crutch, because that's not it, but the 40 days was a *insert a word not the word crutch here* for me because it was my reason for how I was going through each day.  It was the motivating force behind the scheduling of my day and my life - and now its gone and over and I have to find motivation from something else.

So I have decided that while embracing my passion for realty television is not spiritually very profound or particularly helpful to increasing my athletic abilities I am going to embrace it because it is, I believe, my swinging to the other side of the pendulum.  I am going from a crazy busy over-ambitious schedule  to an admittedly pathetically non-schedule schedule -- and in a funny way, I am getting to the point where I don't feel badly about it because I know that it means I am getting closer and closer to recognizing what a balanced center is.  So I am getting into all of these things that I have been beating myself up about for the last month about getting into it and maybe that will help me get out of this slump and into a better, more even-keeled place.

Ok, off to watch my TiVoed episode of the Biggest Loser :)

Namaste,
~Clare